I think it must’ve been easy to solve our issues the way you did. Cowardly, you abandoned the stage of our love theater and you left me behind as an incomplete actress with a poor and single role… this fake happiness doesn’t fit me, you know that and still you left!!! I remained here, confronting the nightmares of a life without you, fighting with the sadness that is damaging my system every day. I stayed here in this universe that has ceased to function by the laws of nature from the moment you stepped out of it. Tell me what should I do to escape the love I feel for you. I would rip my heart from my chest if I could survive without it. Society lacks noble feelings, so if I rip my heart off and feed people with the love inside it, they would surely be grateful for it. This feeling seems to have its own life since it grew for you, it needs its own planet. I would give it to the ones that need love like they need to breathe. People that would gladly receive it, that wouldn’t throw it away, leaving it to rot like you did. This amount inside me would be a lifetime supply if it would turn into air. I don’t need that kind of air, not that much, because I feel it chocking me each day. I want it out of me!
Give me back my peaceful days! The ones in which I could’ve rest in full serenity without thinking of your sea-like eyes. The ones where I didn’t need to recall your face in my mind or to cross my fingers between the strands of your hair with its rye sweet color just to get anxious, happy, dreamy, all ruined and deceived by your complete absence.
I want to be able to get this love out from me. It’s like a plasma field around my being, just like the skin that covers my body. I wish that it could be a two pieces outfit, so that I could wear one at a time. I’ve been thinking and maybe I could handle half of it. At least I could try…
You are the one that has stripped me of my sanity, surrounding me with all this love and then leaving me like nothing has ever happened between us.
At the end of the day I may have changed my mind. I wouldn’t give up my love for you. It’s unbearable to even think about it. You’re my all, my reason to be me, myself and I.
